“With Daring Faith: A Biography of Amy Carmichael” celebrates 25 years

My editor tells me that over 43,000 copies have sold in that twenty-five year span. I’m happy.

So I’m reminiscing. If you’ve ever seen a humble green workbook corresponding to the old fourth grade reader published by Bob Jones University Press, then maybe somewhere in that workbook you saw a very short paragraph about Amy Carmichael’s work in Japan (she was there for a brief time before she went to India, where she spent the rest of her life).

I wrote that paragraph. And while I was researching that lady, I thought, “I’d like to write a book about her sometime.” (Truth to tell, I’d wanted to write a complete book since I was young, but every time I tried to undertake one, it had crashed and burned before entering completion. Maybe that was because I never could figure out how to make those mysteries interesting and realistic.)

Not long after I indulged that little thought, an announcement was made at “The Press,” as we called it. No longer would they publish textbooks alone. Now they would accept unsolicited submissions for trade books—that is, the kind of books you check out of the library.

That was it. I borrowed a biography of Amy Carmichael from a friend (the one by Frank Houghton) and began researching and then writing.

I wrote late at night at the Press, on the computers there, because we didn’t own one—after all, PCs were new and super expensive. (One of my friends got an Apple, tiny and novel, and several of us played around with its absolutely stunning ability to change type styles.) I typed away on that dark green screen with the flourescent green letters, and read printouts on huge, long perforated papers with holes running down the sides.

I was excited. It was loads of fun, writing about Amy’s adventerous childhood. After all, I had devoured the Childhood of Famous Americans series when I was young, and several biographies of great Christians, at my mother’s behest, when I was a teenager. And Amy reminded me of Anne of Green Gables—always getting into trouble by accident. I loved writing about her passion for taking the gospel to lost souls, in England, in Japan, in India.

But somewhere along the course of the writing, two things happened. I entered the middle of Amy’s life, which just sort of went along and went along, as lives do sometimes in the middle.

And I became pregnant. I was sick, really sick. Throwing up many times a day.

So here I was. Awash in misery and nausea and boredom. I had begun books so many times. I had never finished one. It seemed like, well, there was a pattern established, and maybe this book would fall into the same deep, dark hole.

For weeks, maybe months, I stayed home sick from work. On finally returning, I had no interest in Amy Carmichael. I just wanted to survive my pregnancy.

But a very persistent co-worker, Jeri Massi, who also wrote books, took it upon herself to become my own personal . . . nag.

“Becky Henry!” she said. (That was my name in those days.) “How’s that book coming along?” or “Where is that book? You need to finish that book.”

If it hadn’t been for Jeri, it probably wouldn’t have happened. Out of sheer shame, I went back to my manuscript. I sighed heavily over the middle of Amy Carmichael’s life. The sagging middle.

Did I pray over it? I would love to tell you that of course I did. But I’ll be honest and say I can’t remember. What I do remember is that I realized I could skip the middle altogether and go right to the end, where, in my mind, her life seemed to become interesting again.

Somewhere in there, we got our own computer. An IBM PC Jr. In the evening after supper my husband and I played “Pong.” Then, late at night, I wrote.

My daughter Katy was born. I held her in my lap and nursed her while I typed.

And then the middle of the book was born. The middle of Amy’s life sprang to life for me. I wrote “Debates and Devils” and “A Festival and a Funeral,” displaying one episode from each of these crucial parts of the culture of India, to represent the constant challenges Amy faced in each aspect of ministry, as she sought to point people all around her to the glorious gospel of Jesus Christ.

The book was finished, and was accepted and published before Katy turned a year old. Though  fifteen years passed before I wrote another book (other pregnancies intervened, child-raising, and homeschooling), With Daring Faith was the beginning of my true-adventure adventures. Thanks, Jeri. Thank you, Lord. May Your Name be praised.

 

No more night of the living dead

“Mama, Grandma’s eyes are open, but she’s breathing like she’s asleep.”

“Thank you darling.” I dropped what I was doing and hastened to Grandma’s bedroom, where she lay, resting between death and life.

I waved my hand in front of the unresponsive eyes. I put my hand on the unresponsive hand.  I listened to the long, labored breathing . . . until it ceased.

I’ve always heard of spiritual death described as “separation.” The argument runs:  “Just as physical death is the separation of the soul from the body, so spiritual death is the separation of the spirit from God.” Of course this is strictly true, but maybe when God talks in His Scriptures about spiritual death, maybe He’s primarily talking about unresponsiveness.

I touched her cold hand and felt no responsive movement. I closed the lids over the glassy, unresponsive eyes.

No response to light. No response to touch.

When a young friend of mine became discouraged about the smallness of her  love for God, I asked her, “Before you were saved, how much did it bother you that you didn’t love God?”

She laughed. “It didn’t bother me at all. I never even thought about Him.”

You were unresponsive to the love of God in Christ. You were dead. But now, but now, sweet friend, you’ve come alive. You’re responding to the love of God. Take heart that the very fact that you feel concern that your response isn’t what you want it to be, that very fact is evidence that you have been made alive to His love for you.

When ravens go after a dead body, why do they always go for the eyes first? They’re looking for a response. If there’s no response , they’re sure the creature is dead.

Abraham had to trust God to bring a son from his body, because he was “as good as dead.” What is that but lack of his body’s ability to respond? What does it mean to be physically alive, but for our senses and reflexes to be responsive to the stimuli around us?

What does it mean to be fully alive in the spirit, except that we immediately and joyfully respond with all our spiritual senses and reflexes to the stimulus of Jesus Christ?

Jesus said, “I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it fully and abundantly.”

 Fully alive. Fully and completely responsive to Jesus Christ through the power of His Holy Spirit.

But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, even when we were unresponsive to Him in sins,  hath caused us to become responsive to Him,  together with Christ.

Spiritual death? Unresponsive to God, being drawn unthinkingly, always, in the direction of sin.

Spiritual life? Responsive to God in full awareness and joy; unresponsive to the attractions of sin. Doesn’t that sound like heaven on earth?

Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be unresponsive indeed unto sin, but responsive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.

When my body parts (my “members”) begin to respond to temptation, begin to be pulled in the direction of sin, I can remind myself that I am dead, buried, raised, ascended, and seated with Christ. In faith, desperately dependent, I will stand on the truth of God that I am  made new and have the power to refuse to respond to the siren calls of sin. I can trust that He will eventually make true in my experience that one day I will no longer feel any sort of response to that attraction. My spirit—and yes, even my body—can respond in joyful faith to the love of Jesus Christ in me, the Hope of Glory.

Yes, when I sin I’ll repent. But I’ll also remind myself that in the death and resurrection of Christ, I’m free from sin. I don’t have to respond to sin. I don’t have to experience the night of the living dead.

Do you say, “God, make this true in my life”? But if you are in Christ, at least to some extent this is already true in your life. Believe Him, and stand on faith. Trust Him to make it more and more true in your experience.

You are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.

Broken wall, torn curtain

On November 30, 1989, we welcomed Stephen Robert Davis into the world.

At the very same time, the Berlin wall was coming down. I remember watching it on television—me, the young mother who had been suffering with nauseatingly debilitating morning sickness, exhausted by my pregnancy, trying to keep up with an energetic two-and-a-half year old—watching the euphorically jubilant crowds chipping away pieces of that notorious wall, and asking my husband, “What in the world is happening?”

What in the world.

On the other side of that wall—to be more accurate, on the other side of the entire Iron Curtain—a one-year-old girl was being raised in Belarus, part of the U.S.S.R. that became no more.

Our lives moved ahead, so we thought, more or less as they would have if that Wall, that Curtain, had never come down. Hers, on the other hand, was clearly and radically changed.

Maya left Belarus to go to school in Lithuania, where she met Jesus Christ and became a child of God. From there, she went to a Christian college in the United States.

When she came to South Carolina as a translator for some Belarussian children, she met the young man who had been born when the Berlin Wall came down.

Today they will be married. Hearts and hands are joined, across the broken wall, beyond the torn curtain.

Oh, did you think this was about another broken wall? Maybe the one of Ephesians 2? Jesus Christ “is our peace, who has made both [Jew and Gentile] one, and has broken down the middle wall of partition between us.”

Or did you think it was about another torn curtain? Maybe the one of Luke 23 and Hebrews 10? “And the curtain of the temple was torn in two” and Jesus made “a new and living way opened to us through the curtain, that is His body.”

But look! It’s the same God who does it all. He is the Breaker of walls of separation. He is the Tearer of curtains of separation.

We stand in awe of His mighty work, in both physical and spiritual realms.

All over the world.